I like to describe myself as an optimistic realist. You know, I really try to make the best of things, not waste time on trivialities…but I’m aware shit is hitting the fan somewhere at any given moment. And 2016 has been a m a z i n g thus far, so I should have been prepared for the negatives. But I wasn’t. Surely a couple of moths were attracted to my light. Maybe it’s a sign I need to start my spring cleaning a lil early this year…
If you are willing to look at another person’s behavior toward you as a reflection of the state of the relationship they have with themselves rather than a statement about your value as a person, then you will, over a period of time, cease to react at all.
Well, I have been working on fixing this little issue + Yogi’s quote helped steer me in the better direction. Maybe it was my ladytime emotions taking centerstage as they tend to do, but I regressed and had a moment; I found it difficult to focus on the people that love and adore me, instead giving my precious head space to those that attempt to block my joy or deny credit for the amazing shit I do.
Why is this?
Why do I feel the need for people that clearly don’t keep their word or value honesty to recognize my worth? Why can my loved ones see it but they can’t/won’t?! And why do I care!?? Can it be as simple an answer as it’s human nature? Even when relating Yogi’s quote to myself, I automatically thought of the negative ways others have been toward me instead of the abundance of love and acceptance I receive daily. But, like I said, I’m working on it..
I know we have all been on the receiving end of someone’s bad day, right? I’ve mentioned before that you can’t control how people interact with you, so I came to the conclusion that when I act from a place of good intent, love or respect, there is no reason for reciprocity to be denied. From strangers, family, new friends and old friends alike. And if I do receive otherwise, it has nothing to do with me. Who am I kidding! It just might have something to do with me being so cool and funny, confident and generally easygoing; unhappy folk tend to verbally piss on joy and poop all on the party with their negative behavior. And we all know guilty hearts act in foolish ways. Guilty for what? you ask. Who knows? Who really has time to inquire to why every person that does you wrong acts in such a manner? And if you do “figure it out,” what do you do with that information?
Your perception of me is an awareness of you; my reaction to you is an awareness of me.
It has taken me a while to reach this fairly happy place. I was naive to think because, in the last few months, my energy has attracted some beautiful souls and would therefore only attract those worthy of my love, time + respect. I’m still learning how to weed them out, but I do find peace knowing their blunders are something they have to live with, not me.